Monday, November 28, 2005
hm..I am getting really lazy. It's so difficult to bring myself to blog nowadays.I better do it more often. (practise my english).
This morning, my mum, brother and I played ludo.It definitely is one unmerciful game! (on my brother's part) He kept on kicking my mum's and my pawns out! Haiya!! Meanie-pok. Anyway, it was a good dose medicine for my mum's giddiness. Some laughter helped to take the giddiness away, I think.
Youth camp's in about 2 wks time. Pearl and I are preparing the songs. Sigh..I feel rather guilty. I couldn't come up with the songs or the theme. hahaz..sorry pearl! Pearl told me that she believed the theme was on faith in God and His love. Interestingly, I think so too! I opened my bible to where I last stopped reading. As I read on, I realised that I was reading about the feeding of the five thousand, Jesus walking on the water and the feeding of the four thousand. And they are all about faith!
It does take alot of trust in Jesus for the 12 disciples to actually try to feed the crowd with only a few loaves and fish. Jesus also chided Peter for his little faith. "You of little faith," He [Jesus]said," why did you doubt?"
Yea..why do we doubt? Why do we doubt the God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit? We admit that God was the creator of this earth. He is the Lord God Almighty - and nothing is impossible for Him. Yet, we still doubt.
It takes alot of faith to believe that our invisible yet omnipotent God is there even if we can't feel or see Him. It is indeed a difficult thing to do because it sometimes defies the norms of this world.
Many a times, I wonder why God speaks to some people so audibly while I have never heard from Him directly except through the Bible. Sometimes I think He is speaking to me but I have doubts - is it really Him or just my imagination? I still want to know. How do I know??? I guess I truly have to work on my faith and my sensitivity to the Lord's Voice. But
How?Lord, please show pearleen and I (as well as the rest of the worship team) what to do and what You want us to do that will please You. Use us for Your glory, my Lord. We know that You will lead us through.
