my memories
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
I'll take you backThe reason why I stand
The answer lies in You
You hung to make me strong
Though my praise was few
When I fall I bring Your name down
But I have found in You
A heart that bleeds forgiveness replacing all these thoughts of painful memories
But I know that Your response will always be
I'll take you back always
Even when Your fight is over now
I'll take you back always
Even when the pain is coming through
I'll take you back
You satisfy this cry
Of what I'm looking for
And I'll take all I can
And lay it down before
The throne of endless grace now that radiates what's true
I'm in the only place that erases all these faults
That have over taken me
But I know that your response will always be
I'll take you back always
Even when your fight is over now
I'll take you back always
Even when the pain is coming through
I'll take you back
I can only speak with a grateful heart
As I'm pierced by this gift of your love
I will always bring an offering
I can never thank You enough
You take me back always
Even when my fight is over now
You take me back always
Even when my pain is coming through
You take me back.
Yes, God will take me back. Thank You Lord for taking me back. I was that prodigal child yet You have received me with open arms. Even when I didn't care about You, You were there to comfort me. Even when I never knew what You were doing for me, You never gave up on me. Even when I broke Your heart by sinning, You never left me. Now that I want to come back, I know I am unworthy of what You have done for me and can't stand before You. Yet, You have welcomed me with all Your love and grace. I can't tell You how grateful I am. I can only say, thank You and I love You Lord..
-char-
7:01 PM
the scent still lingers
Thursday, February 09, 2006
StrengthFor the past week, I have been dreadfully tired, really exhausted. I know that it is causing me to drift away from God. It' s terrible feeling. It is. There were many times this week I wanted to just give up - studying, going to school, trying to share God's Word and even living like a Christian. My physical tiredness is taking its toll on my walk with God and I am dangerously far away from Him. Somewhere along the line, I know I have lost my focus on Jesus and I am thoroughly frustrated with myself.It is my fault actually. I have been sleeping late since the middle of last week - anything later than 11 pm and the next day, I can't stay awake..and yes lah..I guess I need to take jon's advice and sleep early..wahaha..but back to the point..when I sleep too late, I take much time to read the bible and digest it. I speed through it, wanting to sleep asap..I have nothing to meditate on..Prayer has also become a very slipshod thing this week..I haven't been concentrating on God enough..Yet as I read the booklet Daily strength..it reminds me of God's promise to us..Matthew 11:28. "Come unto Me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest."Lord, thank You for that promise. Lord, thank You for reminding me of it. Lord, I am so tired that I haven't been spending time with You enough. I am really really sorry..please forgive me for letting fatigue take over Your place in my heart. Lord, I pray that You will grant me strength. Sustain me Lord, and let me come back to You Lord. It's miserable without You. Lord, I don't know how Your strength will come but Lord, I know that You will give me what I ask for because You said that if I ask, I will receive, not something evil but the best of what You can give to me. Jesus, my friends are also exhausted. I pray that You will sustain them too. Holy Spirit, please, move in us, give us the joy that the world can never take away. Lord, please, help us.
-char-
5:49 PM
the scent still lingers
Saturday, February 04, 2006
Lord, I was numb but now I am so frightened. How long has it been since I last felt like this? Why do I feel as though I have been threatened with death again? Does this always have to happen? I'm going 17 soon but why am I still so afraid - afraid of them? I want to run into Your arms for comfort yet I have to wait for me to be alone. I need u to embrace me in Your strong arms and comfort me. Lord, I need You. Take away my fear. Don't let the devil frighten me out of my walk with You. Keep me on that narrow path with You in spite of it's persecutions. Be with me, Lord. Lord, Lord, help me..
1:13 AM
the scent still lingers
Thursday, February 02, 2006
Have you ever liked or loved a person a lot? Won't you do everything for the person? Won't you go all out to care for and help the person, to be there in times of joy and laughter, need and pain? Won't you try your best to be near the person? Won't you want to give everything up for the person. Yet what if he or she were a blockhead? One who never knew that you loved him or her, never returned the love that you gave.You'll feel hurt and angry inside won't you?Now. Imagine what God feels.God created us to love us. He didn't need us but He wanted to love us. He created everything in the heavens and earth He gave us food and water so that we might be satiated. Animals to play with. Nature to enjoy. He gave us all that we needed to be happy.Yet, we sinned. Adam and Eve sinned against God by eating the fruit of the Tree of Knowledge. And we as their desccendents are all born sinners. How many times have we broken God's heart by sinning? By telling lies, by murdering, by swearing, by defiling His name, by lusting, by committing adulutery, by murdering, by dishonouring our parents and of course, by worshipping other gods? We are those blockheads.But God still loved us blockheads. He was not willing that any should perish in hell. He didn't want us to burn in a Godless eternity in the lake of fire. Instead, He wanted us in heaven to be with Him - to enjoy the riches and beauty of heaven and to be in a place full of love and gladness. Out of utter love for us, He sent His one and only begotten Son, Jesus Christ, to die on the cross to shed the pure blood needed to wash away our sins. Cruel it might sound but it was because we disobeyed God that God had to sacrifice His Son. And it was humans who persecuted His beloved Son and killed Him. So whose fault is it? God raised Jesus up on the third day after His death and now we have the Holy Spirit and the gifts of God's mercy and kindness.After what God's done, are you still going to reject His everlasting love? Are you going to reject His mercy, His forgiveness, His gifts of life and joy? Are you going to reject an eternity in heaven where no tears of pain and sorrow will be shed? Are you still going to continue to be a blockhead?char
4:57 PM
the scent still lingers