my memories
Friday, June 23, 2006
I'M MOVING ON..NOT GONNA DWELL IN THE PAST ANY LONGER..I'M LOOKING AHEAD..LOOKING AHEAD IN LIFE..NOT TO LOOK BACK. I DON'T WANT TO THINK ABOUT MEMORIES FOR NOW OR I SHALL SERIOUSLY DROWN IN THEM. I'M NOT GONNA LOOK DOWN AT THE GROUND NOR LOOK BACK AT THE OLD..I'M GONNA LOOK FORWARD AND LOOK UP TO JESUS!!! YEAH!
2:40 PM
the scent still lingers
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
I've had a really good time at Michelle's house yesterday night. I had a wonderful long long long chat with pearl, cave, wenhua though I didn't get to chat with the other CF members. But it was fun laughing with the other 3! It's always lovely to be able to laugh and hear others laughing..I really thank God that He is a humourous God and I can still laugh and for making me laugh! If not, this world will be a totally dull place if laughter were banned. ^^
I hope that I won't feel left out in CF..I don't know why but I am getting this feeling that I'm going to be super left out..I'm glad that wenhua is part of CF too..otherwise I'll be very very lonely..because none of my jael people are in CF except for one..and now she is part of the com..well..it's good for her and I am glad for her...but I sort of feel that she has forgotten about us..sorry dear if you are reading this..I just want you to know what I am feeling..to be frank with you..though I can't tell you straight...perhaps I find it hard to let go and understand that friends make new friends and have to change..hmm...
Moving onto happier stuff..LAUGHING IS GOOD.
haha..anyway this party is not for nuts..it's actually deepak's farewell party..he's going back to his homeland to continue his studies..i guess everyone's really sad..especially since he's just became a Christian..we know that he probably face persecution back there..but we know that God will protect him and carry him through..anyway! His testimony on how he accepted Jesus Christ is a really really wonderful and lovely one! HOW AMAZING OUR LORD IS! to have turned a scornful heart to one so in love with Him above! Yups! We'll keep you in prayer deepak! You can always look to us even though we are miles away..but always look to God first!! YUPS! haha!!
yeahh..and thx pearl! I really don't know what to do without you..thanks for understanding me and helping me out unconditionally..you know..i really was afraid that you might be angry with me because you always have to take over my duty and I seldom give you proper reasons for it...sorry pearl...but you've always done it willingly and without complaint and always understanding and believing me because you know that I don't know how exactly to explain to you the problem.. LOVES YOU PEARL! yeah..n i can't do without you either..esp in sch lah! hope our timetables will change drastically so that we can meet in school more often! hheee..^^
12:41 AM
the scent still lingers
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
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11:59 AM
the scent still lingers