Thursday, February 09, 2006

Strength

For the past week, I have been dreadfully tired, really exhausted. I know that it is causing me to drift away from God. It' s terrible feeling. It is. There were many times this week I wanted to just give up - studying, going to school, trying to share God's Word and even living like a Christian. My physical tiredness is taking its toll on my walk with God and I am dangerously far away from Him. Somewhere along the line, I know I have lost my focus on Jesus and I am thoroughly frustrated with myself.

It is my fault actually. I have been sleeping late since the middle of last week - anything later than 11 pm and the next day, I can't stay awake..and yes lah..I guess I need to take jon's advice and sleep early..wahaha..but back to the point..when I sleep too late, I take much time to read the bible and digest it. I speed through it, wanting to sleep asap..I have nothing to meditate on..Prayer has also become a very slipshod thing this week..I haven't been concentrating on God enough..

Yet as I read the booklet Daily strength..it reminds me of God's promise to us..Matthew 11:28. "Come unto Me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest."





Lord, thank You for that promise. Lord, thank You for reminding me of it. Lord, I am so tired that I haven't been spending time with You enough. I am really really sorry..please forgive me for letting fatigue take over Your place in my heart. Lord, I pray that You will grant me strength. Sustain me Lord, and let me come back to You Lord. It's miserable without You. Lord, I don't know how Your strength will come but Lord, I know that You will give me what I ask for because You said that if I ask, I will receive, not something evil but the best of what You can give to me. Jesus, my friends are also exhausted. I pray that You will sustain them too. Holy Spirit, please, move in us, give us the joy that the world can never take away. Lord, please, help us.
-char-

5:49 PM
the scent still lingers