my memories
Saturday, May 20, 2006
OH MY GOODNESS!!
I HAVE SO MUCH TO BLOG ABOUT TODAY THAT I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO START!
okok. I shall do an agenda for this post just like what JELLYBEANS! does for each each PW session. I am doing the minutes now anyway. lol!
Agenda:
1. PASSION AC
2. KIDSREAD
PASSION ACLast night was PASSIONAC! So you would have seen me don the bright RED passionac tee that turned up ORANGE on sonia's cam. WAHAHA!Yesterday wasn't a good day for me. Neither was it for the other CF members. In fact, EVERYONE didn't have a good day. There was this sian and hopeless mood in the school yesterday. I would call it the DEVIL'S DOING. All of the CF members and I were under quite a bit of attack.I don't know what the other CF members went through but I do know what happened to me. I was actually quite frustrated and slightly injured emotionally. Why? 1. I had only $1 to spare after paying for the passionac t-shirt and I already and still owe brendon $5 and joefai $1. Now I owe grace $2. LOL I WILL PAY BACK.2. I haven't finished my shou ji and now I owe my chinese teacher 3 of them.3. I was too sian to do anything, or any schoolwork. Not being able to complete anything will make me even more sian.4. The above 3 reasons were not the real reasons why I was what I was yesterday. Here is the real reason:I was frustrated because people were not willing to go for passionac. I was actually quite sad when the night before, max and gabriel were on the verge of saying that they didn't want to come for passionac because they said that they would try their best to make it. To know that my close buddies were refusing the opportunity that I offered them to know our Lord God, Saviour and Redeemer, Friend, lover, Father..etc. JESUS!!! made me very depressed. Which friend would not be? To know the truth but having your friend refusing to accept it..you ought to know the sting. I also was unhappy because I wouldn't get to see them again. I haven't had the time to meet them and I doubt I will and thus I was hoping the two of them would go down to AC so we could meet up and laugh like what we did during the first three months.Well I knew I couldn't force them. I couldn't make their decision for them. They weren't interested and didn't want to accept it. It was up to them and I couldn't do anything about it. I just that to leave it.I was also very sad because most of the JAEL people from AC didn't wanna go for passionac. The only ones who went in the end was zhen, ivan, cave and me. That's only half of us. The AC j3s from JAEL couldn't come because they were all in army. Some of those who weren't from AC said that they will go but in the end they didn't. And therefore the other four of us from AC didn't go. I'm not against them going for prayer meeting but I was really hoping that this event would bond them with the christian community that we have been praying for, and that they too will be revived and refreshed. But I guess whenever I told them that I couldn't join them for certain activities and I understand what they felt..Next up, I was rather irritated with one of my classmates. Unfortunately, but yes, I was frustrated. Yups, because that friend told me that he would come for passionac and he was so definite about it the day before. Then on that day, because he was caught for his hair and was made to cut it by the school barber and the back of his hair was cut straight, he didn't want to go. To tell you the truth, if it weren't for passionac, I wouldn't have really bothered. In fact, I would have been rolling on the floor, and dying of laughter because of his absolute vanity. He said later on that he would go, but after his lessons, he was on the verge of not going. Why? I don't know but I suspect it's because his friends weren't going. I felt a rather betrayed and angry then. I guess I felt that I had put in alot of work on our friendship but he is taking the friendship but not giving it back and always running off with other friends but when he needed my help, he would always look for me. Yups. I really was quite angry, hurt and bitter for a while, just like me when I was younger.But then, I am so thankful that God took away my hurt and frustration. I knew that I didn't really have to bother. Anyway, he changed his mind and went back for passionac. lol (still I didn't bother =] ) oh wait. if this classmate of mine is reading this post, then good for him. I'm not being sacarstic lah. Now you know why I told you in the sms that you need to learn to work on your friendships yah? And even though I'm not going to bother about what happened yesterday, I am still going to promote you to the post of VAINPOT.However, all of us kept on praying fervently, with a prayer chain starting from morning until pw time where no one could pray at the bleachers. After that, we prayed in the CF room and continued praying. And our focus was entirely on God. THANK GOD! It wasn't easy, for we really wanted to give up. I'm glad that we persevered. And we prayed both in tongues and english constantly, for passionac, that God would be present and that people's lives will be touched. We asked that this school will soon rise up. God lifted us up!!For the first time in many months, I danced before the Lord, jumped or hopped around as you might call it, God took away all my burdens and allowed me just be free within His presence. HE HAS MADE ME FREE!I'm not disappointed with the turnout, although it could be better. At least I know that there are people who does love Jesus just like JAEL and CF!Shadrag (is that how his name is spelt?) led worship! He's good lah! He's been blessed by the Lord, with charisma. And it's so wonderful that God should make him the CF president.I really had fun with the CF people. Like the rest, I really didn't want last night to end. But it had to..anyway I know that my friendship with them and most of all JESUS will not end just with passion. IT WILL LAST!haha!!I just wanna ask that the CF people that I always hang out with will not forget me or exclude me from whatever they do later on. I suddenly realised that they are all running for the CF com. I am the only one amongst them who won't be in. I just hope that you won't exclude me k? haha..yea..zhen u know the feeling don't you..yups! Anyway, I love you guys and keep on staying strong okay?CFers!
ZHEN!!! Jess dear, sonia, florrie, tracy aka PRIMROSE, gareth aGAR aGAR, david, marcus and all the rest who made my day! THANKS!
5:35 PM
the scent still lingers
